"Be still and know that I am God." --Holy Bible
Deeksha is amazing.  I first heard about it the day before I got initiated to give it.  I was at the Pahoa health food store in Hawaii and ran into my friend (a very common occurrance).  She told me she was going to Deeksha training the next day and thought I would be interested in it.  And how could I not be interested?  I learned for her that it was a oneness blessing given by placing your hands on the top of peoples' heads--sounds cool, a little bit like Reiki, ya?  This was a few months after my first Reiki attunements. 

I decided to go to the training.  That night I made seven or 8 glass seed bead bracelets to trade for the training.  They were very beautiful and dainty. 

The next morning Lauren came and picked me up by the road early and we drove through Hilo, Hawaii to a magical bamboo sanctuary--someone's home. 

It was a weekend training.  The first day we received many deekshas, meditated, chanted, and learned about the oneness movement.  The second day we went down the road to a woods overlooking the ocean.  There we received more deeksha and took group photos.  After a light lunch and 49 minutes of dancing and chanting a mantra we each received Mukthi (initiation) in the form of a 4 minute deeksha and then placed our hands on the Padukas--sandals that represent the feet of the divine.  Afterwards we lay down for an hour to let the Mukthi sink in.

All through this training I was very aware of pain in my head and neck.  I believe it comes from old energies being removed, healing, burned away and replaced by divine energy.  I was also very surprised and ecstatic to realize that I could feel me brain as it chugged away inside my skull.  I used to bring it into conversation, now I don't pay as much attention to it though.  It has become more subtle and I am used to it, though it still fascinate me.

Now, nearly a year later, I have found a wonderful Deeksha community in Vermont and attend weekly Deeksha meetings in Burlington.  I feel so blessed to be involved with such an amazing process.  Giving Deeksha is pure bliss, the prayer for all beings to awaken to oneness consciousness.
Here is a heart it is heavy with the warm weight of caring.  It speaks always its truth and sees only in kindness.  This heart is of the world; it thrums with life force energy, it is alive.  Within it there lies a pathway.  Align with this path, walk down its winding way, closer and closer, farther and farther.  At the end you find the emptiness of pure bliss.  Welcome to the Path of the Heart.
The left of the right, the dark of the light is something that is discredited, disregarded as dirty, evil, just plain old “bad”.   And what makes it bad?  What is the meaning of its seeming degradation?  We do not understand it.  It is the eternal mystery, the nonexistent, unknowingness, deep, dark, sub-consciousness.   

The common man is drawn to what is bright, what is shining in front of him in a vision of gold richness, comfort, and promise of concrete achievement and fame.   He strives for greatness in many avenues.  To have the highest job, the prettiest wife, the most handsome husband, the most intelligent and obedient children, the flashiest car, the fattest wallet that he can possibly get is the ultimate goal.  And what then?  There is not a though of the “and what then?” in the mind of this man.

When we are quiet, when the body ceases to move and one focuses on what lies beyond the mind then the darkness, the tangled mass of our subconscious begins to arise.  At first it is hard to look at and acknowledge, for all the ugliness that we have imagined and then stuffed down into the bowels of our being is now coming up into the light.  It might bring disgust, self pity, self judgment, anger.   There is no helpfulness in dismaying over what is coming to light, it only succeeds in further suppressing what can so easily be released once it is fully accepted and known.  There may come a time when it seems like all that is within is self-hatred, bitterness, grief, envy, woundedness.  And this leads to the bleeding out.   Let yourself ooze. 

Through this purging comes understanding.  We are not this image that has been held so long inside of our being.  We are not anything that anyone else has said about us.  Our truth, our way, our path, our rhythm, is completely unique to the one that has been presented to us by all the role models we have ever learned to imitate.  

When we have dove into the blackness of unknowing and found that all we had heard and feared about it is based on lies, then we are free to see for ourselves what is truly there in the depths of our being.  What has lain there in the core of yourself so long that you did not even know existed? What has spoken so quietly, tapped you on the shoulder so softly, nudged you so subtly, that you did not realized it was there until you really stopped and took at good hard look? Could it be all that you had ever searched for?  Could it be the perfect solution to all your so-called problems?  Could it be that inner bliss that is so lusted after by the mind? 

Deep inside you will find your true home, the heart of your entire being.  From here speak out your truth and become aware of the truths of all your brothers and sisters.   Here you can know that you are whole, you are al-one, only because we are all one.  Here you can accept all that you are.  Here you can rest in the eternal light of source.  Om.